I'm learning slowly
the cruel lies of time
losing intention &
ignoring the signs
keeping hands up
over my eyes
it's impressive
how much pain my
ignorance buys
I write my maps of
unresolved dreams
handmade grief &
shifting extremes
keep turning this wheel
of hope & ennui
until I'm so dulled
I don't care
what I believe
adrift in the sea or
running aground
it's my own siren song
that lures me to drown
my heart pulls me in &
fear holds me down
I know how to swim but
I'm so tired &
lost in the sound