swing

we're living and dying all at once

experiencing every moment for the

first and last time, I don't know whether to 

celebrate or mourn, so I do a bit of both

each day, maybe the imbalanced are the

only ones who've got it right

understand the precarious 

balance of reality

tree

telepathy doesn't work

I know

neither does prayer but

never stops them from trying

I'll send this out to the collective, it's 

bound to be picked up by

receptive fellow crazies

I'll think of a word, a tree

send my thought back while I wait on this

island painting the shadows and

shapes from my dreams and I will never

have to go back to normalcy again

underwater and still burning

legs pulled up, tucked

my best imitation of these kittens

that are sharing my sofa & eating my hair

listening to what's mine over the radio

the sisters can't know what's hiding

underwater, nor can I because written

words turn the obvious into mystery

silence turns into wounds, 

all convenient places to hide.

absence doesn't make us fonder

it gives the warmth time to forget

douses with waters deep over flames, 

I can't keep burning so bright. 

I'm pouring these embers, residual and

lingering into words and kittens and piano

keys in hopes that it eventually finds its

way back home and lights the house on fire.

Elephant

April 21, 2019

We sat there

With such a thickness in the room

Each time

My mouth would open

Then shut

Constipated

Like a dumb fish

There are words

That we can't undo

No rewind or do over

Truths that hurt to say

Hurt not to.

It's Ending

(written 6/23/19)

Everything we do
No matter how bright the sun
Is laced with mourning

Bittersweet laughter
Blends into silence
Which is more lonely
When shared

I can't feel anything right

I experience everything alone
Half of us is always asleep
Or somewhere awake and dreaming

I don't know how to say this out loud
To you
So I'm saying it here
I'd rather be lonely alone.

a little help

nothing lands anymore

permanence was always the enemy

nah, not permanence.  

I meant stagnation.

full stop.

but some certainty

just a clue

would help,

you know?