my thoughts have
come untethered
tonight,
maybe it's the rain,
the death, or just the
lack of little death
keeping me from
seeing clearly,
feeling clearly,
or just having a
normal fucking mind
but nothing is so
simple anymore
nothing as transparent
as me, writing this
trite self-indulgent
bullshit in place of
forcing the things
I promised,
because words are
hard when they're
expected.