I've toed the edge
hesitant but impatient
trying to be safe
hiding my face
terrified of jumping
& not being caught
terrified of waiting
& missing my shot
it's a test of trust
letting myself fall
not knowing how
I will land
onto the rocks
broken amid the
car parts, bottles
& cutlery
into the safety of
warm water
whole & dancing
in the waves
just let me enjoy
today
the hope that
I'll survive