I am so
Sober
I don't know what to do.
I get to sleep
At a decent hour.
I eat right
And exercise
And make the dinner.
I don't care where my
Spark had gone
Am mildly worried
It may have gone out.
I clean and I
Work and I
Read bedtime stories.
Nothing is fun
But nothing is horrible.
I don't read I don't write
I just try not to think
Too deeply
Try not to
Want anything
Try not to dream.
I drink my morning coffee
And I go back to bed
Try for a magical 8 hours
In any combination
Try not to try
Listen to the message
On repeat
You can be better
You will be better
You have to be better
Than this.
Once I fix me
The rest has to fall into place.
Right?