Monday, July 20, 2015

A flip of the switch

Things are going well
I said
exhausted and relieved after the party.
I told him
I haven't felt this good in
I can't remember how long,
and it was true
at that moment.

The house is clean
the kids are
happy, healthy
and we are financially
stable.

We feel like grown ups.
Finally.

Empty feelings creep on me
when I'm not watching
not expecting the switch to flip
amidst all of this
being content.

I'm a broken fucking record
Says me to...me
Very aware of how stupid I sound.
I'm sick of it,
imagine how everyone else feels.